Arghhh. what's the feeling? I'm always saying that you are much more lucky than me. It's true and I think you are blessed all the time. yeah~ full of jealousy sometimes. I cant make it. Why there's so much difference between us? There's been many times.. and smiles can't do anything. If I be the one who doing that. Who will care of me and stay with me? Oh god.. I'm so sad now. No one can help...

Actually I dont even know what I'm caring about right now. Nothing's going wrong but myself. Tears rolling and rolling. wtf I'm so weak. So Unbalance!!! I wanna shout out loud!!!! Everything is not fair at all!!! WHY!!!!!???

Yes, I hate you. Maybe. That's why I'm writing here and in English. There's no need to guess who I'm writing. If you think it's you, then it's you LOL.

No, I'm not gonna show what I'm feeling. I'll be friend with you so dont worry.. But it's more dangerous, isn't it?? You won't know when I'm gonna make you fall into the trap. Yes I'm evil. I wanna be more and more evil than I can. I want to revenge.

Do you still remember that? Oh yea. What can you do and you know is just making fun and having fun. You dont even take any care of my feeling. I guess I'm too foolish to cry for it. Oh my tears wasted!! I dont think I need to think of you anymore. Just do what I want to do and it's all fine. You bastard.

Sorry of being rude but I dont think I'm wrong. I'm sensitive all the time. When I said "It's ok, I dont really mind", would you think that I'm saying the truth? =) You wont know what I'm thinking in my deep heart. So please make sure what you are saying and what you are involve with. Dont offend me. You can be angry and I can also. It's just the problem of I want or not.

Ok. The End. This post ended but the story will never end..

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